November already

23 days till Mexico.

Things have been really up and down with me. And I don't know how I feel about any of it.

A and I have been going back and forth about the whole moving situation. He feels it's better that I move back home and we take things slower. I feel like that would make things worst and I would much rather stay and move forward as is. I really don't know what's going to happen next only because he doesn't seem to be changing his mind about me moving back home and I am not really changing my mind about that either. The sucky part of all this is the timing we are about two weeks away from thanksgiving and about three weeks away from mexico 4 weeks away from my birthday and so forth. So if nothing happens in basically the next two weeks then I really don't know...

A's Birthday

Last week was A's birthday. He turned 26. I didn't know what to get him so he picked out car parts for himself and I would just pay for it. But I still wanted to make it special so I wanted to cook him dinner on the day of his birthday and then take him out to dinner on another day in some fancy restaurant that neither one of us had been to. I made reservations for a place in the city for Saturday at 9:15. His birthday landed on a Wednesday so I took a half day that day. I ended up buying groceries, decorations, a cake and a small table and doing two loads of laundry that day. I made him skirt steak, mash potatoes and lasagna rolls. I bought a cookies and cream cake from cold stone. I didn't even fill out his card to this day. Well we had dinner and cake and by 8 i was knocked out. Thursday afternoon my boss had given me pre-season tickets to a knick game on Friday night. So I had planned to go there and then stop by my friend's bday thing since we would already be in the city. I was excited to go out all day that day. And when I got home I found Anderson cooking dinner with the sad news of no knick game which meant going out at all. The next day he worked didn't come home till 6 and he had to drop something off as well. My reservations for 9:15 canceled. We ended up in a place where I have been to before and me spending way too much money for that place. We got into a fight almost every night that week including the next night. He thought he could make up for everything by going to the movies last minute. I absolutely HATE doing things last minute. So we got into an even bigger fight that night.

I hope next year I can make it special the way I had wanted to make it special this year :(

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When I was younger I always imagined myself to be married by age 25-26 and have babies by age 28. Well here I am at 27 just two months shy of being 28. After being single for 3 years I finally met someone I could say that I want to spend the rest of my life with. I have only been with him for four months but I have never experienced such joy or elation. I know that I was meant for him and he was meant for me. I am definitely not one to rush into things. So I am in no rush to be married or have kids. I hope that one or the other will happen by the time i'm 30 though. I will soon be moving in with him and I couldn't be more excited or overjoyed than to be able to share a home with him. Hopefully that will be the start of our Happily Ever After together.

Juror Duty

I experienced juror duty selection for the very first time. Randomly as I was cleaning Thursday night I came across my juror duty notice. Luckily it was dated the next day to begin calling. I waited and waited and finally got called in to a court room. They selected the first panel and in the afternoon the second panel my name was called out during the second panel. It was a robbery case. In the end I didn't get picked but I had to return the next day. The next day was sooo boring all I did was wait and in the end I got dismissed so now I am free and clear for 6 years.

My weekend had started off a little rocky. Me and A got into it a little bit which led me to just stay home that night. But he called me up at 5 in the morning. He came over and we made up. I went to flushing to get a haircut I read about this place and thought that it would be cheap and good. And it was I have no complaints about my hair. I got side swept bangs. They are still on the short side but I'm sure that in two weeks I will love them. That night I was going to watch my friend's band play. I went with A and OhJayy. We got there at 11 and there was no sign of them but then I saw drums. They played well. I heard some new songs all in all it was a good night. Sunday was just running around doing errands. Except for the little tiff i had with my bebot it was all in all a good weekend.

I think my wish of not being around for my bday this year will come true. I have been looking into Cancun for about a week and I think I found something that could work. Two other girls from my job will be going as well. So it should be fun. I just really hope that it happens.

The moving process begins...

I started packing things I wouldn't need in the near future. I packed my winter coats. All of my summer dresses and all of my bags. It felt very weird but also very good all at the same time.

Friday night my friend came over to give A an guitar lesson. We had went to strike afterwards even though I had been talking about dave and busters for weeks. Strike was so empty it was depressing. They didn't have as many games and I could not understand how they could stay in business when no one was there. We played air hockey, then basketball and then bowling. A beat me at everything. I was not a happy camper. I don't understand how he is good at everything he does. He just picks it up like nothing.

Saturday is when i did the bulk of my packing. A had come over but I was soo moody I didn't end up doing anything the rest of the night. I fell asleep and ordered dominos when I woke up.

The next morning I actually brought what I had packed up over to his place and then went to target. It was good to be shopping alone I even went to the mall for like an hour but I couldn't find anything.

I still have not told my parents anything about me moving out....During the weekend the washing machine in my house had crapped out. So I did laundry upstairs. What I was afraid of is them seeing that the washing machine was no longer in use and wanting to buy me a new one. And yesterday that is exactly what they did. I told my mother to cancel the order and that I didn't want a washing machine. I guess I need to tell her pretty soon.

Labor Day Weekend

Not by any means anything exciting nevertheless it was an extra day off of work. I spent the majority of the weekend with A. Saturday he got rid of some things to make room for me I plan on moving into his place hopefully by the end of the month. He had few things to pick up so we went by woodside to pick everything up. We had first ate at the buffet which was great since I had a killer headache and some food seem to make my headache disappear. A has been thinking about getting a guitar so we went to guitar cener and he got a fender acoustic guitar. I asked my friend if he could give him a lesson to see if he would like it. So he will be coming over Wednesday. I took A to the Asian Supermarker he wanted to pick up some supplies to make some sushi (I have created a monster he wants sushi all the time). By the time we got back home. I was exhausted and I watched an episode of lost and just fell asleep. Sunday we had left to go back to Guitar Center since one of the strings wasn't connected to the guitar that he had picked up. We got back and he decided to take a crack at the sushi making. The first roll he made kinda fell apart but he made two more rolls after that and they were pretty good. I eventually made it back to my house that night to clean up and do some laundry. I cleaned up a little but eventually just knocked out. Monday night I met up with Powpow and G to go visit his family's house. That was about it nothing exciting or crazy but still a nice cozy weekend with my bebot.

Trust

Trust - reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.

I have been going back and forth with idea of trust. How can someone really deeply trust someone. Especially if that trust was broken in any way. As I look back now I don't think that I have trusted anyone fully in that sense. I have always suspected something and always tried to dig deeper into it. I don't want that now. I want to be able to know fully in my mind that I can trust someone. To know that that person will do me no wrong. No matter how much reassurance you get from the other person it is so difficult to let go and not have your guard up and just be able to trust them. One day...one day i will achieve this and be able to trust in him fully.

The First

My first blog...how fitting that my first entry be written on the first of the month.

I wish for this blog to be the start of a new Piglet leaving behind her past and looking forward to a blissful future with my one and only a-dub. I went on my first date with a-dub on the first of the month and it was also made official on the first of the month. The one time I didn't expect anything I got back everything I ever wished for. He couldn't have come at a better time :)

“When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.”